Coming Clean,,, Or just thinking out loud…..

I have this dilima, I haven’t been totally honest with (certain sisters) whom I admire greatly and respect masha Allah . Since blogging with my co-wives“MY” secret has come out. I say MY secret  because out of us 3  i’ve been the only one keeping this a  secret. Why I’ve  kept HIS other  marriages a secret,,,, well because the response I got in the past , I shared with a sister that my husband has taken a second wife at the time I thought she was the second I knew better,,,,,,, but you know what I mean and  well they’re  divorced now, but the response I got was not only shocking but hurtful, her response was and I quote “Oh my goodness Samira what did you do “…..since that response  I try to avoid  any question reguarding my marriage or I’ll  say what I think others want to here… polygyny isn’t easy and we are struggling things are not working out and so on . when clearly that is not the case for us masha Allah. Anyways  Insha Allah I will be going to New York to get Lil Momma who btw turned 5 July 13 masha Allah alhumdulilah I miss her so much, Well since i’ve been blogging with my co-wives and a few sisters from New York have read our blog I still have that uncomfortable feeling of of ALL the questions of course people will ask masha Allah I guess I shouldn’t of put in their mind that my marriage was perfect,,,,,,when no marriage is perfect,,,,,,,,  I’m not saying I am not happy I am,,,, we all are happy and content,,,,,,, well most of us are ,,,,,,,,, I just feel like I should have just shared with everyone sooner I sorta wished I had shared in a more personal manner  instead of  them reading our blog  Allahu Alam,,,,,but then again  It’s our marriage and our business .  I don’t like feeling like i’m obligated to talk about my marriage whatever,,,, Safiyah is more open then I and I hate that this post is coming out like i’m ashamed or something i’m not !  Just a little  sensitive ughhhhhhhhhhhhh anyways

It feels like it’s been yrs since i’ve seen my daughter dang I miss her and now that she’s 5 I miss her even more. I haven’t seen a few sisters in years It will be nice seeing them all again insha Allah .